Starting Over (Again!?)

This starting over mode I am currently at is probably my 100th in my lifetime. But despite the statistics, I still feel that exciting feeling of being able to change some aspects of my life again.

Yes, the gloomy days are over (for now), and hopefully the sick days are too. Now, I am excited for some self makeover. Work-wise, I am actively applying again, but optimistic as I am right now, I know in the next days I will receive a lot of emails of rejections. hahaha but that is fine, as they say walang personalan.  So what I will do is apply and apply until I get accepted and have a good boss, like my current bosses. But don't assume I earn a lot ha! because I don't. This is so part time, and seasonal but the pay is good, I feel good whenever I am paid. haha

Since I got sick again (for the past 6 months), I started to neglect my personal appearance, because I wanted to look sick so I would get proper medical attention. Because I was feeling sick, I didn't mind about my appearance anymore. But now that I am a little well, and have lost so much weight again, I suddenly feel conscious about my appearance and hate my clothes because they don't fit me anymore. My insecurity is so worse that I don't even want to go to the mall anymore, or have pictures of me taken because I didn't want any of it posted in FB.

So I am a hermit but definitely want to change that. I still need more fitting clothes though (anyone who would like to give me some shopping money would greatly be appreciated).

I also intend to go out more so my legs will regain strength again. My walking the past months does not exceed 100 steps. So I will slowly try to walk longer distance than that to exercise my leg muscles, improve my circulation and also for my heart to get used to working a bit harder that what it is used to.

But the highlighted problem right now is my closet. Hahaha How pathetic.
But honestly, 99% of whats in my closet are TOO BIG for me, they make me look skinnier than I already am because they so don't fit me. 1% by the way are the undies. haha, they're the ones that fit me at this body frame.