IF I HAVE AMNESIA

It's been ages and I still have not talked much about my relationship with C and what a sunshine he is to my grey and dismal life. It's kinda hard to talk about happiness actually because I find a little on the bragging side. And I don't want to talk about happy things to the general public because my happiness may not be their brand of happiness too. Also the thought that, the best things are left unblogged. LOL But then I worry what if I have amnesia, if I don't talk about it, or write about it, how will I be reminded of the good times and happy times I have with C?

I don't think I can come up with words that would give justice as to how exactly my life is with C. We have issues, yes, heck we are not rich (yet.. hahaha) but right now it seems to not matter. I am not exactly sure if the feelings and thoughts are reciprocated ha, I am not that totally assuming, there's still a bit part of me thinking what if he doesn't feel the same thing, blah, blah, blah.... But right now it doesn't matter. And it's not what I want to talk about right now.

I am in an unconventional arrangement with C. Others will think it's improper and disapprove about it, but I could only care less. I am at a point in my life where everything is a bonus. So I just enjoy each blessing that comes my way and not really care about social perceptions much anymore.

So TO MYSELF WITH AMNESIA:  I want to remind myself that I am in a relationship with Chris right here, right now. He's Mr. Nice Guy (for all that it means), he cracks up with my silly and corny jokes, he has eyes that smiles, he's tall, he's handsome (hahaha..), he washes the dishes and the laundry too. I like picking whiteheads on his nose just before bedtime,  he doesn't like tomato seeds, hates fish sauce, doesn't like sweets, loves to tease me endlessly until I get annoyed, hates PDA, loves Lucy (that's me!).