Changing Seasons Every Now And Then

Seems like my endorphine is higher than my serotinin level these days. I'm talking about the hormones that enslaves my moods, in case you aren't familiar. On a happier side of the world right now, even a 2,000 level of creatinine (toxin in the blood with normal rate of <200) can't bring me down.

I am happy because I am preoccupied again. I love it when I am busy. It makes me want to hope and to look forward for a better tomorrow. It gives me a chance to dream and believe that one day soon things will be better. I don't want to sound ungrateful, of course I am still thankful of what I have now (than thinking what I don't have) but human as I am, I do want some better things in my life, though not the impossible things like me waking up and realize this is all but a bad dream (I am realistic about this), just for a few things like finding a sponsor other than my parents to pay for my medications or get a transplant minus ALL the hassles.

Anyway let's not talk about my sad story because I intend to blog about the happy part of me right now. :D

So remember about all the hate and the heartbreak last week? Well, that was last week! Hahaha Thank God for that! Just when I thought things will turn for the worse, my life have been better than it was a week before last week.

My lovelife is better after the storm. Turns out C wanted to stay and loves me really after all. He even brought his dog Shadow to our house when he came back! Now I still have my man, a dog and a hobby to keep me busy and earning (though a little at a time, but hey, great things start with small beginnings right?)

So today I woke up refreshed but my butt muscles hurt a little from all the sitting I did last monday to make my goodies! One day soon, when I could perfect the process I can go public. But right now, it's just a few friends and family to try and buy.. Sort of testing phase but I need to sell them to recover the costs! hahaha

I really just hope I could keep up this excited level and could go on and make an earning out of this.

This, and my online job is getting okay. Scheduled training will be next week. I was hoping it be this week so I could start clocking already. But patience is a virtue!

I just really need to be my own pep squad, cheering in my head "You can do this, Sandy!" hahaha

And oh, just really want to thank God for all the friends and family and family and friends's friends for being nice to me and helping out in their little or big ways. I have always thought how I feel like they are my angels sometimes. Whenever help is given out of the blue, or do a favor that definitely makes my life so much easier. Thanks a bunch! But I still do pray, one day soon, someone will be able to help us on our medication expenses. Maybe not out of their own pockets but I know in many ways, help could be given.