The Dream I Had

I do not like sleeping alone. If I had to, the light has to be on the whole night through. Being alone scares me. I couldn't sleep well, and if i did manage to sleep, I get nightmares. So i slip in and out of consciousness as I try my hardest to wake myself up everytime the dreams get scary. And my heart beats so fast that I sometimes think that maybe I would die of nightmare, which makes me dread sleeping alone more.

Last night the dream was different from the usual scary dreams, dreams about the other beings. Last night I dreamt I was dying, not in an HD day way, in a hard-to-breathe kind of way, but more like my time is up and I had to close my eyes and wait for my soul to separate from my body. So during my last moments, I was saying I Love You to my mom, it was just my mom and the nurses and Dr. G. To help me with my transition, Dr. G gave me a sleeping pill, it was a big pill I need to swallow so I will just drift to my death and all the while I was waiting for the medicine to effect, I was telling mom over and over again that I love her. 

Then I woke up. And til now I am disturbed by it.